HalleJay

So Awkward

I just realized how awkward I am. Okay, so I think I understand why people often think other people are fake. So there’s these two girls at my school and we all used to have beef, then we dropped it or whatever. But I still don’t ever know if they like me or not so I usually don’t say anything to them just cuz I don’t wanna get hoed and stuff. But today when one of them was alone I was awkwardly saying something to her and she literally just kept walking- probably thinking in her head that I’m fake as shit. Lol, that does seem extra sketchy! But I didn’t do it just to be “fake” I did it cuz I don’t know for sure if they like me or not so sometimes I’ll like speak like we’re cool and other times I won’t cuz I never really know! idk it makes sense to me now…. but yea. I’m awkward and got hoed today. Cool! Lol

So Awkward

I just realized how awkward I am. Okay, so I think I understand why people often think other people are fake. So there’s these two girls at my school and we all used to have beef, then we dropped it or whatever. But I still don’t ever know if they like me or not so I usually don’t say anything to them just cuz I don’t wanna get hoed and stuff. But today when one of them was alone I was awkwardly saying something to her and she literally just kept walking- probably thinking in her head that I’m fake as shit. Lol, that does seem extra sketchy! But I didn’t do it just to be “fake” I did it cuz I don’t know for sure if they like me or not so sometimes I’ll like speak like we’re cool and other times I won’t cuz I never really know! idk it makes sense to me now…. but yea. I’m awkward and got hoed today. Cool! Lol

Upbringing

Today has been many things. My head is everywhere. Idk if I should share what I learned/observed or keep it to myself. I guess I’m just grateful for the life I was given, for the deck of cards I was dealt. I’ve made bad decisions and I’ve had a few bad experiences but they are nothing compared to what they could’ve been, and what my old heads went through. So I’m just thankful to God that I’ve, for the most part, listened to the things my mom has been preaching to me since I was able to understand. I’m grateful that I really listen to the stories/lessons my aunt, uncle, granny, dad and stepmom share with me. I’m grateful God even blessed me with a family who cares enough so I don’t ever have to experience life without ever hearing the lessons/stories. I can’t even imagine my life with a different upbringing. I mean I’ve realized just how blessed I am before, but tonight it was different. It clicked tonight. I still can’t put it in words, though. I’m gonna sleep on it. Goodnight